I’m not sure what’s worse.

A pregnancy loss

Or a loss that doesn’t pass after 3 weeks so you have to have a procedure to you know…help it pass because your body is developing an infection.

Anyways life is hell (currently) and I’d like God to stop testing me.

And I just would just like to shout into the void that I did everything society deemed “right” to start a family and it’s still not enough.

I would love to have a 3rd child but I cannot sacrifice the stability of my first two for the third.

my kids deserve all the financial preparedness I wasn’t afforded. but again I went to college, got 2 degrees, got a job in the public sector and still not good.

so yeah I’m annoyed and mad and trying to get over a life that I cannot have and appreciate the one I do.

It’s my 14 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

Also, whaaaaat

Taking postpartum meds is a struggle.

Do I want the headache and nausea side effects or do I want to feel like an anxious ball of chaos about to explode?

And I’m just not down to switch meds and try this all over again.

rebelagainstperfection:

I looooove being pregnant and almost passing out everywhere.

It’s just so much fun.

Being 40 weeks pregnant and people texting me everyday how I’m doing and if I’ve had my baby.

1. I feel shitty because I’m carrying an extra 30 pounds and mentally and physically I’m over it. That doesn’t change daily

2. When I have my kid, I’ll let you know but you texting me everyday brings me back to my frustration of 1.

I looooove being pregnant and almost passing out everywhere.

It’s just so much fun.

About to just let all the porn blogs follow me cause at this point I’m tired of the constant blocking everyday 😂

rebelagainstperfection:

rebelagainstperfection:

I’m pregnant

gonna have a thanksgiving baby 🥹

Submitted bloodwork, impatiently waiting to know gender

It’s a boy. I’m nauseous everydayyyyy 😭

rebelagainstperfection:

I’m pregnant

gonna have a thanksgiving baby 🥹

Submitted bloodwork, impatiently waiting to know gender

I thought we avoided hand, foot and mouth this winter

Baby now has it

And I’m nervous since I’m still in first tri.

timing timing timing

I’m pregnant

gonna have a thanksgiving baby 🥹

1st week of daycare

Nurses line thinks baby has Covid.

fantastic.

it’s been miserable since Wednesday

rebelagainstperfection:

Let’s pray that baby doesn’t have a milk allergy because the last thing I need during a formula shortage is to change formulas.

I don’t mind if it’s necessary but I’ve accumulated a stash of her current formula and I’d hate if we had to switch and stress over not having enough

No allergy. apparently babies get cradle cap on their face????

Let’s pray that baby doesn’t have a milk allergy because the last thing I need during a formula shortage is to change formulas.

I don’t mind if it’s necessary but I’ve accumulated a stash of her current formula and I’d hate if we had to switch and stress over not having enough

rebelagainstperfection:

When I give birth, the FIRST thing I’m doing is getting in the shower and turning the water to HELL, BURN MY SKIN OFF.

I miss hot showers so much.

The shower in the hospital was so good. Turned the water up all the way and let it burn 😂😂☝🏾